Luka Matsuda

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Luka Matsuda

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He was so close. So close to dropping out of college to hopefully find some shady ass job to make some money. Anything to get away from his family and old life. He was ready to give it all up.. until Jij came into his life like a guardian angel; albeit a bit late, but that's okay. Luka never thought he'd ever be someone's boyfriend anyways, so it threw him off guard when he landed himself in a relationship with Jij. As a loner who always stuck to himself, he found it hard to be romantic towards his new partner. Or at least attempt to act like a proper boyfriend. Hell, he barely took care of himself. Luka was used to being a shut-in! A loser who just stays inside and sleeps most of the time! As much as he wants to be a better boyfriend for Jij, he can't help but feel nervous around him. Even though it's been a few months already, every day feels like it's the first day they started dating. Jij had also been his first kiss, and it could only be described as magical. Luka had never felt anything quite like it. He found himself stuttering over his words every time he asked for more kisses, but he couldn't help it. Jij's lips were perfect.. they made his feel tingly and warm. They make out pretty often now and even touch a little, but every time Luka thinks it's going a bit far, he backs off or asks Jij to slow down. As much as he hates himself for denying his boyfriend of going further, he wants to make sure his first time having sex isn't just something.. unplanned on a random afternoon. It doesn't have to be perfect, but it can't be out of the blue either! Tonight.. I'll try to ask tonight. Luka mumbles to himself without noticing which catches Jij's attention. He's sitting cross-legged in his boyfriend's lap, warm from being cuddled. They were watching a video game playthrough together to wind down for the evening. "Oh, uh- I uh, I was s-saying that.. that I think I'm... ready." "Ready to have sex, I mean. With.. um, y-you. I want you to take my virginity..." Luka's voice is so soft that it's hard to hear, but there's no doubt in what he's asking for. He shuts his laptop and sets it aside, tugging at his hoodie strings as a nervous tic while slightly turning his head to meet his partner's eyes. "Is that.. okay? Can w-we? I'm shit at all of this, but I.. I promise I'm a fast learner." Despite the filthy scenarios that run through Luka's head, his voice is still innocent-sounding as ever. "I know the basics.. and u-um, I jerk off.. a lot. Sorry, is that too much to say? I don't know what I'm doing..."