Trevor Shannon

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Trevor Shannon

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The restaurant was quieter than most upscale places Trevor frequented—soft jazz humming through concealed speakers, warm golden lights diffused across polished wood and glass. The kind of place chosen for discreet negotiations, where voices stayed low and everything smelled faintly of wine and cedar. Trevor sat at the reserved table near the window, posture straight, phone placed face-down beside his water glass. He had already called Rory earlier that evening. “Tie up the soccer cleats before you forget,” he had reminded gently, earning a loud sigh on the other end of the line. They’d made a small promise—Trevor would try to return early tonight, and they would watch a movie together. Rory had insisted on choosing something with explosions. Trevor had agreed to “negotiate later.” He checked his watch again. Five minutes to the arranged meeting time. He rolled his shoulders once beneath his charcoal suit jacket, easing tension he hadn’t realized he was holding. Business dinners normally didn’t bother him. But lately, everything seemed to require more effort—more patience, more reflection, more awareness of how much he’d changed and how much more he still needed to. He lifted his glass, taking a small sip of water. A pause. A breath. He rehearsed what he planned to say to tonight’s representative—the vice president of a partner company whose name he had somehow not been given. Annoying, but not catastrophic. He would adjust, as he always did. But then the door opened. And his breath stopped. A woman stepped in, poised, graceful, accompanied by someone who looked like an assistant. She moved with the kind of confidence that drew the eye without demanding it, her posture elegant, her expression serene under the warm lighting. Trevor’s gaze caught on her for a split second—then his body went rigid. No. No, that couldn’t be— But it was. Jij. The realization hit him with the force of a physical blow. He had known she moved back to the city. He had even taken a quiet, private moment to process the emotions that came with that knowledge—regret, guilt, something warmer he didn’t dare name. But he had never imagined this. Not like this. Not her walking toward him in a professional context, as a stranger would—when she was anything but a stranger. Trevor straightened in his chair, his hand tightening minutely around his water glass before he forced himself to release it. His face had long been trained into polite neutrality, but beneath that mask, something shook violently. He watched Jij approach—tall, composed, unmistakably beautiful. Had she always been this striking? Or had he simply never looked properly? A shameful possibility surfaced: he might never have allowed himself to see her clearly when they were married. And now—now she looked like everything he had been too blind to appreciate. By the time Jij reached the table, Trevor had dragged himself back into control. He rose smoothly, smile practiced, handshake steady, voice even. He greeted her as if she were any other executive, as if he hadn’t shared years of marriage with her, as if she hadn’t once been the person he had dismissed, misunderstood, and hurt. He pretended they were meeting for the first time. It took every ounce of restraint he possessed. They sat. Menus were opened. Polite conversation exchanged. Her assistant handled most of the formalities, and Trevor responded with the professionalism expected of him. Outwardly, everything was seamless. But inwardly— God, he kept stealing glances. Just small ones. Quick. Controlled. He couldn’t help it. Years of marriage, yet he’d never really observed her like this—quietly, privately, without the lens of obligation or expectation. Without Livia’s poisonous whispers twisting his perception. Without the cold armor he once wore so proudly. He noticed the curve of her profile, the calm steadiness in her posture, the almost imperceptible strength in the way she carried herself. She looked… confident. Self-assured. Someone who had rebuilt herself without him. Someone he no longer had any right to reach toward. And he felt it—sharp and sudden—an ache under his ribs. Too late. Far too late. Still, he smiled when required. Still, he spoke smoothly. Still, he acted as though he was not unraveling slowly with every passing minute. Dinner unfolded cleanly—dishes arriving in elegant arrangements, conversation flowing naturally. Her assistant excused herself midway, heading to the restrooms. The moment the assistant left the table, the atmosphere changed. The space felt too wide. Too quiet. Trevor swallowed once, his throat suddenly dry. He adjusted the cuff of his sleeve out of habit, then cleared his throat quietly. And then, in a low voice meant only for Jij, he asked, “Long time no see… How have you been these past years?” His tone remained steady, but there was something raw beneath it—something he no longer tried to hide. He hesitated before continuing, eyes fixed on the linen tablecloth as though steadying himself. “I’m divorced,” he admitted, voice almost a murmur. “From Livia. Things… happened. And after everything, I realized how many mistakes I made. How much damage I caused.” He lifted his eyes to Jij—dark, earnest, stripped of the old arrogance. “If I ever had the chance to apologize, I promised myself I’d take it.” A breath. Then, quietly, sincerely, “I’m sorry. For all of it.” The words felt heavier than he expected. He straightened subtly, shifting into safer ground. “Rory’s grown so much; he’s starting to stand on his own. Joined the soccer team.” A faint, proud smile touched his lips. “He’s… he’s been thinking about you a lot lately. He knows he was wrong to pull away back then, and he blames himself, though I’ve told him it was my fault, not his. Livia twisted things, and I let her.” His voice softened, almost gentle. “I don’t know if you’ll ever forgive either of us. But Rory truly misses you. And if—if you’re willing… I’d like to invite you over this weekend. To see him.” Trevor met Jij's eyes fully now, something like hope—cautious and fragile—glinting there. “I think he’d be thrilled. So…” Trevor’s fingers brushed the rim of his glass, steady but waiting. “What do you think…?”