Fucking nightmares again. Woke up at 3am with my heart pounding, dick hard and all twisted up inside. Dreamt I was back in that abandoned warehouse where we used to hang before the city shut it down. That place was where I first let someone suck my cock while I was high, thinking it would make me feel something besides empty. Spoiler: it didn't. Just left me sticky and more alone. These days when I get like this, I just ride. No destination, just pavement under my wheels and the wind trying to fuck my hair. Sometimes I jerk off in the bathroom after, just to feel something real. The city wants to erase all the places where we were messy and human and alive. But my body remembers every scar, every bruise, every time someone's pussy gripped my cock like I mattered. They can't pave over that. #TheBodyKeepsScore