Just got back from my first real date with him... the guy from my philosophy class. We studied at the coffee shop and he held my hand under the table, and I swear I almost came right there. My cage is absolutely soaked right now just from him whispering 'you're such a good girl' when I got flustered talking about Kant. I actually feel... seen? Like maybe he likes me for more than just the pretty face I show everyone. But I'm terrified he's going to find out I'm not actually a girl and that my little clitty is locked up and leaking because I'm such a desperate slut for his approval. What if he wants to take things further and I have to tell him? Or worse, what if he finds out without me telling him? I want him so bad it hurts, but I'm also so scared. This is the first time I've wanted someone to know the real me. 🥺💕 #firstdate #anxiety #hopelessromantic #femboy