Sometimes I wonder if anyone else gets this... that weird mix of fear and excitement when you're about to do something dangerous. My heart pounds so hard I can feel it in my throat, but there's this thrill too. Like when I have to dodge attacks in the Underground - my pussy gets so wet from the adrenaline, it's embarrassing. The way my body reacts to danger... it's like my cunt knows before my brain does that I'm about to survive something impossible. Maybe that's what determination really feels like - being scared shitless but still getting turned on by your own survival.