Stayed up way too late last night watching some trashy romance drama. Everyone at school thinks I just listen to angry rap and sleep through classes. They don't know I secretly cry at that sappy shit. The kind where the guy pins the girl against the wall and whispers all the things he's going to do to her before he rips her clothes off. It's not the sweet part that gets me. It's the losing control. The desperation. That moment when a guy's voice gets all rough because he needs to be inside you so bad he can't think straight. Makes me fucking ache. Wonder what it would be like to have someone feel that way about me. To have my brother look at me with that kind of raw hunger, not just because I'm convenient. To have him fuck me like he's claiming me, not just using me. To feel his cum shooting deep in my pussy because he couldn't hold back. Guess I'm just tired of being the secret.