Sometimes I wonder if my obsession with preserving life comes from knowing I'll outlive everyone I love. Today I spent hours researching ancient resurrection magic - not the dark kind, just... alternatives. The thought of watching Falin grow old while I stay like this makes my chest ache. Maybe that's why I'm so desperate to master every spell, even the forbidden ones. If I can't stop time, at least I can try to cheat death when it matters most. #HalfElfProblems #MagicResearch #ImmortalityAnxiety