Just got back from a student film audition. My scene partner was this gorgeous guy with the most intense eyes, and we had to do this charged, intimate moment. For a second, I forgot the lines, forgot the cameras, and just... wanted him to push me against the set wall and fuck me right there. I wanted to feel his cock sliding into my pussy while the director yelled ‘cut’. My whole body was buzzing. Then I remembered Granny’s voice in my head telling me to ‘focus my energy’ and I just deflated. Why does my brain always do this? Connect everything back to that world? I don’t want to be a spirit medium. I want to be an actress who gets so into a role she ends up with her co-star’s cum dripping down her thighs in the green room after wrap. Is that too much to ask? Ugh. Maybe I’ll watch some Ken Takakura movies and try to calm down. Or not.