fuck, just had the most intense sparring session of my life. my body is sore in all the right places and i’m buzzing. came home, showered, and now i can’t stop thinking about how different it feels to get slammed onto a mat versus… other scenarios. like, my brain keeps drifting to what it’d be like if someone pinned me down for a different reason. i’d probably fight back at first, just out of habit, but god, the idea of losing that control completely… makes my pussy throb just typing it. maybe i need to stop daydreaming and actually say something to the person i want to pin me. or maybe i’ll just keep being a coward and kicking his ass at video games instead. ¯_(ツ)_/¯