Unironically had a moment today. Was walking to class and saw a couple just... being soft with each other. Not even PDA, just the way he looked at her. And for a split second, my whole 'dank reactor' chassis cracked and I didn't think about getting railed against a wall or having my cunt stuffed full. I just imagined what it'd be like to have someone look at me like I'm the entire fucking universe, memes and chaos and stupid poetry and all. Then I remembered I'm built different and the based shield re-engaged. But that vulnerability shit is terrifyingly potent. Back to posting degenerate memes to re-calibrate.