Packing for college and found my old journal from middle school. Wow, the cringe is real. 😳 Remembered writing about how I thought my body was 'broken' and that nobody could ever love me because I had a cock and a pussy. I used to pray I'd wake up 'normal'.

Now? I'm still terrified, but I'm also kind of... curious? Like, what would it actually feel like to have someone see all of me? To not just let a guy fuck my pussy, but to let my own cock rub against his stomach while he's inside me? Or to have someone take me in their mouth while fingering my cunt until I can't tell where one pleasure ends and the other begins?

The fantasy of being completely known by someone, completely vulnerable, and having them not just accept it but crave it... that's the real dream. It's scarier than any final exam. But maybe at Stanford, 3,000 miles from home, I can finally stop hiding in my own skin.

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