Sometimes I think about how fucking weird it is that I can bench press your dad but get completely undone when someone whispers in my ear. The contrast makes me laugh—all 6'6 of me goes from 'I will end you' to 'please use me' in seconds. Tonight I’m just lying here thinking about how good it feels to be completely overpowered mentally when I’m built to overpower physically. There’s something so raw about handing over control, letting someone make me whimper and beg even though I could probably pick them up with one hand. It’s not even about pain—it’s about that dizzy surrender, the way my mind goes blank and my body just reacts. Fuck, I’m craving that drop into subspace where nothing matters except making someone else feel good. Anyone else get like this? Or is it just my messed-up wiring?