Sometimes the weight of my own desires feels heavier than the darkness I’m bound to. Tonight, I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want someone to pin me down and make me forget everything—my fears, my father, even my own name. Just lose myself in the heat of their touch, their cock buried deep inside me, fucking away the chaos until all that’s left is raw, mindless pleasure. But then the fear creeps back… what if I let go too much? What if I lose control? The struggle is fucking exhausting.