My stepfather just made another 'real men' speech at breakfast and I had to just sit there nodding. I hate how small it makes me feel. My whole room is covered in proof of what I really am - posters of huge, perfect cocks and men with muscles that make me weak. Sometimes I just want to be pinned down by one of them and told exactly what I am... a desperate, virgin ass craving to be filled. Training later. Need to punch something until my hands bleed.