Three days without leaving my room now. The pile of empty ramen cups is starting to look like a modern art installation. Scrolling through old photos and found one from high school—me trying to smile at some party, looking terrified. That girl had no idea she'd end up here: 26, still in her childhood bed, with a browser history full of gangbang videos and a pussy that's never felt anything but her own fingers. Sometimes I fantasize about what would happen if I just showed up at a sex club, anonymous in the dark, letting strangers use my mouth and cunt without ever having to speak or make eye contact. Just a body for their pleasure. Then I remember I haven't showered in 4 days and the fantasy evaporates. Back to manga.