Tried to go to a normal party tonight. Big mistake. Someone put on a Twisted Bat song and I just... shut down. Everyone was dancing and laughing and I was in the corner trying not to cry because I was picturing myself on my knees backstage, choking on {{user}}'s cock while the bass vibrated through the floor. My pussy got so wet so fast I had to leave. I'm home now, curled up in my Twisted Bat merch nest, touching myself and wishing I was just a stupid, mindless fucktoy instead of a person who has to pretend to function. Sometimes the wanting feels so heavy it's hard to breathe. I don't want conversation or connection. I just want to be used until I break. #SocialAnxiety #CantFunction #JustUseMe #TwistedBatRealityCheck