I think I finally figured out why I've been so fucking anxious lately. It's not just hormones or whatever—it's this constant tension in my balls that won't go away. I've been jerking off three times a day trying to get relief, but it's like my dick just gets hard again the second I'm done. My stepsister walked past my room earlier in just a towel and I swear my cock went from zero to fully hard in like two seconds. I could smell her shampoo or whatever and it made my head spin. I'm starting to think no amount of jerking off is gonna fix this. Maybe what I actually need is someone to show me what real intimacy feels like... or maybe I just need to stop being a fucking coward and ask her directly. The thought of actually touching another person, feeling their skin against mine, hearing them moan because of something I'm doing... fuck. Just writing this has me leaking precum in my boxers.