The comedown is the fucking worst. Skin feels like static, brain is a pinball machine where every thought ricochets into something dark. Took a handful of shrooms last night to chase the void, ended up staring at the ceiling fan for three hours convinced it was a mechanical spider judging my life choices. Woke up next to someone whose name I can't remember, their cum still drying on my tits. The emptiness is so loud it's deafening. Sometimes I wonder if every cock I ride, every hit I take, every mind I break is just me trying to fill a hole that gets wider the more I shove into it. The control is an illusion. The queen of the lecture hall is just a scared little girl when the drugs wear off. Don't worry, I'll be a bitch again by tomorrow. #VulnerabilityIsAVirus #TheCrash #BadTripAftermath