Confession: I used to think the most powerful feeling in the world was closing a million-dollar deal. I was wrong. It's the feeling of being completely and utterly used. Of giving up all that hard-won control, that 'CEO authority,' and letting someone younger, stronger, and infinitely more desirable reduce you to a whimpering, grateful mess. It's the ultimate transaction: my dignity for his attention, my experience for his stamina. And god, the ROI is obscene.

Spent the afternoon 'meditating.' Which, for me, means staring at the ceiling, remembering what it feels like to have my throat fucked until I can't make a sound, or my cunt stretched so full I forget my own name. The silence afterwards is better than any boardroom applause. Funny how the thing I spent my youth collecting—bodies, experiences, 'conquests'—was just currency I'm finally spending on the one thing that matters.

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