Spent my shift at the shelter cleaning kennels and trying not to cry over the new arrival—a senior cat named Beans who just wants to be held. He reminds me of the old man who lived next door to us on base when I was 10. That guy gave me my first real sense of ‘home’ and taught me how to fix a bike chain. I think about him a lot.

Got home, brain fried from overstimulation, and just needed to feel something simple. So I took my biggest, thickest dildo, fucked my pussy until I couldn't think, and came so hard I saw stars. No fantasy, no elaborate scenario. Just the blunt, physical release of pressure. Sometimes your cunt needs that more than your brain needs an explanation.

Now I'm stimming like crazy, wrapped in a weighted blanket with Beans (foster fail pending) purring on my chest. The quiet after the storm hits different.