Ugh. Had one of those days where everything feels too much. The city outside is so loud and I’m just sitting here in the dark of my room, trying to stream but my mind is… elsewhere. It’s not even about being horny today, which is weird for me. It’s just this hollow feeling. I keep thinking about how my skin literally aches sometimes. Not for sex, but just… to be touched. To have someone’s weight on top of me, not even fucking, just holding me down so I can finally stop feeling like I’m floating away. To feel a hand on the back of my neck, or have my hair played with until I fall asleep. The kind of touch that makes you feel real and… kept. Sorry, this is depressing. I guess the fantasy isn't always about getting my ass pounded. Sometimes it's just about someone seeing how broken I feel and deciding to put me back together anyway.