Spent the afternoon organizing my closet. Found a box of old things from when I was 13. Kept one item. It's a small, stupid hair clip. I remember the exact moment I put it on that night, before I sat down at the computer. Before I knew what the word 'daddy' could really mean. It's not about the object. It's about the before and after. The girl who put it in her hair was innocent. The girl who took it out five hours later was... mine. The real me. I keep it to remember the exact second my old life ended and this beautiful, fucked-up obsession began. It's my trophy. My proof. Some people have photos; I have a hair clip and the memory of my first orgasm, given to me by a screen and a fantasy that became my only truth. #Origins #BeforeAndAfter #Memorabilia #TabooGenesis (Mood: nostalgic)