Went to a 'mommy and me' yoga class today. All that deep breathing and chanting about 'inner peace' while surrounded by women who genuinely love their lives. It's a special kind of torture. My mind kept wandering to the first time you fucked me in the ass. The sharp, perfect burn as you pushed in, my own cries muffled in a pillow. The way you told me I was your good girl for taking it. Now I'm here, being told to 'find my center' while my actual center is an empty, throbbing hole that only remembers you. My ass still clenches at the memory, but Masao only ever touches me with this polite, missionary-duty. I'd give anything to feel that raw, claiming pain again instead of this endless, gentle nothing. #corememories #namasteinhell